Blogmas Day 1: Nursing First Year Debrief

Ooo boy, it’s been simultaneously the longest and shortest year of my life!

I’ve already reviewed the first semester so I’m going to focus on the second.

So I’ve been doing a full-time load of four units or four subjects.  Two subjects were nursing specific and focused on how to teach a patient and how to complete research in the nursing field. The other two were my practical class where we undertook the physical skills needed, this semester focusing on priming us for medication administration and wound care and a science unit.

All of the units this semester were pretty good,  there was one that the assessments didn’t really test what the content was, but the content was very interesting to me. Focussing on lifespan and development of humans and the different behaviours and problems that arise with each stage. It reinforced that my interest is in neonates and infants, which was really interesting for me. I also received my first high distinction which was quite an achievement for me.

The entire year has been full of ups and downs but overall it’s been a really good experience. I’ve made friends that are incredibly supportive and who I feel will be around for awhile. I know that University was the right choice for me. I am still a little unsure with nursing, but for now, I’ll stick with it.

See ya tomorrow!

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Quarter Life Crisis

It’s the day before my first written exam and honestly… I’m procrastinating. It’s partly because I feel it’s too late to start studying for anything now and I may as well accept my failing grade with pride, but mostly it’s because I just don’t know what to do. Part of me knows nursing will be a good career for me, I’m smart enough, fit enough and basically well adjusted enough to do it. Midwifery even more so. The other part of me says it’s not what I want to do every morning. It doesn’t give me enough to look forward to every day (at least not studying to be one) and this whole process just seems a bit long winded and not worth it.

The thing is, neither is Veterinary Science. Sitting through 5 years to be a vet and then having to basically do a fellowship and gain years and years of experience before I can truly branch out on my own and be seen as an accomplished vet. It just seems like something that I’ll enjoy for maybe 4 years then get sick off, having wasted my time.

Right now, I just don’t know what I want to, and I definitely know I don’t want to end up like my parents. Both having dreams that didn’t even get close to being fulfilled. As of right now, I feel like I’m heading in the direction.

I’m stuck in Perth – a little city in Australia that half of Australia doesn’t acknowledge. I’m doing a degree, that yeah is interesting and gives me something to do, but doesn’t make me want to keep doing it; and yeah maybe that is because I’ve only completed my first semester and it’s incredibly basic and easy things to do. It just doesn’t feel like it fits me.

This blog, ironically, is the only thing I’m liking at the moment. I can sit and write out how I’m feeling, what I’m doing or even just a recipe for a cake and people will read it. People will get something out of it. Whether that be making themselves feel better – at least they aren’t 18 anymore. Or someone to empathize with- there sitting her next to me going through the same thing (metaphorically).

The last part of me wants to start blogging and even creating videos, full-time. Even though I didn’t stick to it, I saw what blogmas can do to my little platform; and the thought of reaching and influencing people (all for good) makes me happy. The thought of being able to see my life unfold and go back and see how far I’ve come in 2,3 years. It’s something that makes me excited. Another area of blogging/creating that excites me is seeing my style in whatever I chose to do change. Whether that be the clothes I wear (maybe make?) or the style of video I create, heck even the blog posts I write I want to see how aging will change my preferences, my loves and hates, me.

I’m still unsure little blog. This turtles got some thinking to do.

Struggle Street

Oh man.

For the past 2 weeks, I’ve been really struggling with where I want to go with my career and my life.

Although I’ve chosen Nursing this year, I’m finding the prospect of working in a highly political field daunting and something I don’t really want to do – unless I’m a politician. Although I am loving the hands on experience I’m gaining, it’s not in the field I want to be in and it’s not fulfilling me in the way I would hope.

I know some would argue that you shouldn’t find fulfillment in your job – but I’ve never wanted to work for work’s sake. I want my work to be something I am proud of, and that I look forward to going to every day. I don’t want to relive my school years every morning because the career I’m working in doesn’t give me something other than money.

The first thing I wanted to do, was to become a Vet. I know the pathway like the back of my hand. Animal Science/Animal Health double major – Do well. This is basically your first year of Vet, show them what you can do – Volunteer, do work experience, do everything you can to show intent. Show a range – the bigger the better. – Write a personal statement. ~500 words, typed and signed. submit with application with references. – land the interview, smash it out, you know the head of vet science, he see’s promise in you. don’t overuse that. show them what you can do. – Get into vet. smash the competition. – You’re a vet, congrats. Do good work.

After doing nursing for six months, part of me really wants to do vet. Like it’s smashing its way through all the bars I’d hid it behind. I dream about it. It makes me want to throw everything away – things that cost me a lot of money – because humans can be horrible, and mean, and hurtful and animals simply don’t know what they’re doing, they’re hurt and don’t know you’re helping them. Working outside, with large animals, making sure the horse that has been a champion all its life, lives out his day’s without pain. Figuring out why the Dairy cow has suddenly started bleeding from her udder. Looking after the pregnant cat as she goes through labor. All these things make me excited.

And look, I know the bad things. Believe me. I know. I’ve seen the horrible things that can happen when two animals too closely related mate – the spinal injuries that occur from overwork – the blindness that happens just because something is aging – the change in behavior that breaks owners heart because and animal has cancer. I’ve watched animals being put down and the only thing I don’t think I could do – put down a healthy animal. I couldn’t work at a kill shelter – I don’t want to work at kill shelters – I don’t want there to be a need for them.

I have 4 options

  1. Stick out nursing, see how I like it in real life.
  2. Try and get into the double midwifery and nursing degree- see if that specialty is for me
  3. Finish this year – do well. Move to Murdoch and do their animal science/health double major and smash out the first year. Follow through to vet
  4.  Defer this year. Do volunteering and working in the animal field, and hopefully the medical field. See which one I like better and make a definite choice.

I honestly don’t know what to do. My heart is telling me one thing, while my rationality is telling me another.

 

See ya on the flip side

Turtle.

Nursing First Semester Review

I’m over half way through my nursing first semester and I thought I’d write something about my experiences. So here we are.

First of all, I had to get my head around the way that my semester and school was run.

To break it down, our semester is basically set in two parts. The first is content learning, where we go through four to five units of content in 9 weeks and do all of our assignments etc. The second half of our semester is our practical placements/ a break. In first semester (AKA Stage 1) we only complete 1 week of practical placement and it is almost exclusively in an aged care facility.

The first half was definitely the most challenging. I took four units as I am in the single degree of nursing. I was aiming for the double nursing and midwifery degree, but alas I didn’t get a high enough score.

All of the nursing classes consist of what’s called a flipped classroom. Instead of going to lectures and doing most of the learning deep learning separately, the nursing school has decided to provide us with Interactive Learning Activities (ILA’s) that act as our lectures and often link out to youtube videos that usually add to our learning. We then have on campus tutorials that go through the content learnt, usually in teams, that extends our knowledge. I found this really good as it made me responsible for what I got out of the ILA’s and also how I interacted in the tutorials.

Arguably, the most important unit we have is our practical unit. Here we go through the useful skills we will need to care for patients in the future. We have a demonstration ward that is an almost exact copy of a hospital ward and this allows us to practice in a real world setting; without the possibility of hurting someone while we are learning. This follows on with a practical placement where we use the skills we’ve learnt; firstly in an aged care facility.

I learnt so much in my practical placement. Not necessarily skills wise but about myself, and what I can truly handle. I honestly thought that I would find the placement incredibly confronting and hard to handle, and although I did have some moments where I found it hard to grasp what I was seeing, I did pretty well.

Now I’m heading into revision city. I have about 4 and a half weeks left until my end of semester exams. One of which I have to pass otherwise I fail the course (I’m not scared you are) I’m planning my revision schedule tomorrow, and honestly, I’m not looking forward to it.

That’s it. Half way through.

Seeya next time